Monday, August 14, 2006



Yup- always got to have a plan. So here it is.

Aug 22: Blood Test and U/S.
Aug 24: Start Lu*pron Microdose
Aug 26: Start FSH Stims- and stay on them for 9 to 13 days.
Oh My Gosh! I am on these things for nearly 2 weeks- 2 weeks of injectibles- 4 shots a day. What the heck is that going to do to my personality? What the heck is it going to do to my stomach? Did I mention I use to have a lovely stomach? It was just starting to look normal again... Maybe it is a good thing that DH will be gone for the last week. I am not sure I will want to be around myself. Ack, how will I eat?
I sense the indian take-out place will be most busy that week as I know cooking is not really in the cards for me. I will have to empty out the freezer and stock it with chunky monkey. I find the cold container resting on my bruised stomach comforting as well as the flavor soothing to my soul. Other flavors are acceptable so long as it says the word "chocolate" somewhere on the container. Funny how chocolate is a requirement in ice cream but not for anything else in my life.

Retrieval date is set for Sept 6th. This could change. Any of this could change. I am starting to get really comfortable with the delicate tentativeness this schedule creates. It's a bit like Mr. Toads Wild ride at disneyland. For those of you who have not yet had the experience of being on that ride- it a runaway car that takes you through several minutes of driving- where you think you are going one way and then you suddenly change course. It's strange that I have always liked the ride. Maybe I have alway just been comfortable sudden changes in the course of life.

I have major respect for the women who have done this more that once- this is not an easy process and I admit that it is most definately kicking my ass the longer I stay in it. I won't say that this process will be over come the 2nd week of september- I know better now and I look at dates with more caution. I started the IVF process in May- now here we are in August and I am still on it. I can't help but wonder if IVF#1 could possibly take any longer- but I am afraid to voice this fear out loud. The nice part about this next round of phase 1 is that I am feeling a great deal more sane going into it. I don't know if it is the blogging that helps- or the community-- maybe it is all of the those things. In any case, I am looking at this next step with more peace and anticipation than the last time we took this fork in the road.

14 comments:

zhl said...

Good luck! Hope the end of this IVF is well worth the wait.

Oh, and my all-time favorite is NY Super Fudge Chunk--chocolate with dark and white chocolate pieces. The best.

Keeping The Faith said...

Sounds like a good solid plan! You'll be at retrieval before you know it. Then it’s the long and much dreaded 2WW. I'm glad we are cycling together and can lean on one another.... it is so wonderful to have the support of my blogging friends. I'll be right there w/ you at each step...cheering you on. I hope this it for you and the IF journey can come to a close! Much love-

Angie said...

Good luck! Sounds like a good plan. I hope this works out for you! Any and all ice cream will help, I do believe! :-)

Angela E. said...

Mmmm, ice cream. Personally, I love Phish Food. Soooo good.
Sounds like everything is in place. You've got a great plan going forward and hopefully this cycle of IVF is all you'll need. I do agree that having this blog is such a good outlet for all of us. It is nice to be able to chat it up with women going through the same thing with you. I'll be a couple weeks behind you. Good luck, honey.

Sherry said...

Isn't it great to have a plan?
Even if its a fluid one....you sound very "Zen" about it I have to say!

I too hope to have a better idea of my plan - my baseline u/s for this cycle is 8/16.

I will be pulling for you!

the waiting line said...

good luck!!

sube said...

And a good plan, it is. I'm on microdose Lupron, too, and will be about a week behind you. Hoping this works out for both of us.

Meg said...

Good luck, Ellie. No more hold-ups. That's great. x

StellaNova said...

What a great attitude. I'm glad you have a plan ... they always make you feel like you are somehow in some kind of control (even if it's only an illusion:)).

Good luck, for what seems like the longest IVF cycle in history.

Heather said...

YAY! A tenative plan is better than no plan. Good luck - is sounds good!!

Hopeful Mother said...

Awesome that you have a plan! I really hope everything goes smoothly for you this cycle and it is your LAST ONE!

Will be rooting you on along the way!

VanillaDreams said...

So glad to hear "THE PLAN" -- it's always nice to have a plan and at least have something to look forward to, isn't it?

I know I always feel better when I am at least cycling -- if not, then I usually feel just downright depressed!

Also congrats on the FSH level! That is awesome! So happy that you can get started sooner, rather than later.

Look forward to hearing more updates soon....

Kris said...

I always feel much better with a plan. Especially if ice cream fits into the plan! Good luck!

serenity said...

So glad to hear "the plan." It's going to go by so fast.

Mmmmmm, Ben and Jerry's...........