Wednesday, March 14, 2007

Ok, it's been confirmed. The clinic had me come today for a scan. This is one of those days where I wished I lacked an intuitive side. The baby's heart was not beating on todays scan. We are very sad and just taking some time out to greive.

Ironically I was so optimistic that this cycle would work I brought all my extra meds and supplies to the clinic to give to other women who might need them but not be able to afford them. Now I kind of wish I'd kept the valium...

20 comments:

Keeping The Faith said...

Oh Ellie- My heart breaks for you. I am so sad that this happened. I know there is very little that I can say that would provide comfort. Just know that I'm here. I'm thinkiing of you.

-Faith (KAC)

Tara said...

Ellie, I'm so sorry. This breaks my heart.

Adrienne said...

I'm so sorry, Ellie. My heart goes out to you and your family.

Sherry said...

Oh no Ellie . . . no, no no.

Do take the time to grieve and let the emotions come and go as they may for a while.

I'm just so so sorry, I was so excited for you - truly.

Bea said...

I am so sorry. After all this. I'm just so sorry.

Bea

VanillaDreams said...

Ellie -- I'm so very sorry.

There is nothing more awful than having *that* ultrasound. I know. Siiiiigh.

I wish this didn't happen to anyone.

I'm very sorry for your loss.

Many hugs,
xx
Nilla

Patience said...

Oh no... I'm so sorry...

serenity said...

Ellie, I am so very sorry. My heart is breaking for you.

Love and peace to you right now.

Samantha said...

Oh Ellie, I am crying for you. I really wish things had turned out different. My thoughts are with you.

Twisted Ovaries said...

I'm so sorry Ellie. If you need to vent, I'd be very happy to listen.

Beagle said...

Oh Ellie, I'm so very sorry.

Hopeful Mother said...

Ellie, I am so sorry for you and your husband. I can't imagine how you must be feeling right now.

I'm saying a prayer for you and your husband to comfort each other and find some peace.

Please know that we are here for you.

carrie said...

Oh, Ellie, there are no words. I am so incredibly sorry.

Thalia said...

Oh ellie I'm so so sorry, that's awful awful news. I know you sort of saw it coming, but that doesn't really make it any easier, does it? Thinking of you.

Carol said...

I am so sorry. You will be in my thoughts.

Meg said...

Oh Ellie. I am so so sorry xxxx

Lut C. said...

Such incredibly sad news, I'm sorry for your loss.

Sarah said...

Oh no, I'm so very sorry. Wishing you peace soon.

ms. c said...

Ellie, I'm so so sorry. I'm thinking of you.

hopeful to hateful in 28 days said...

This will take time. I went through it a year ago and it still hurts. Even if people don't acknowledge it, you are a mommy and your baby will always be with you.