Thursday, July 05, 2007

Where to start? I just got the results of my betas today. The first beta (tuesday late morning) was 16 and the second was 28 (thursday early morning). Not quite the doubling number that we had hoped to see -- so I go back in next monday and take a 3rd beta. Several possibilities as to why the second beta is low-- and the only positive one is that perhaps implantation just occurred late and we are just starting to climb. The other possibilities aren't really all that thrilling- with one being an etopic pregnancy and the other being incomplete implantation and thus a miscarriage.

Can I just point out that the whole waiting part just plain sucks? I am off to a family reunion this weekend-- and I hope that it will provide a distraction from all this- I have this looming fear that if somehow this pregnancy isn't viable that it just isn't going to happen for us and we move onto to a different kind of life. How do you just let go of something like this?

So we are back to the waiting phase. I'll post again after my 3rd beta and let you know- good or bad.

12 comments:

Carol said...

oh gosh, so sorry. I will be hoping that it is good news, and you are just off to a slow start. Hopefully the full weekend will be a good distraction for you. Hang in there.

Bea said...

I'm so sorry. I can't answer your question, and I suspect neither will you be able to until well after beta day. Still holding out that last bit of hope...

Bea

Beagle said...

I'll add my hopes here too . . . hang in there. The extra waiting is awful. Fingers crossed.

Samantha said...

Crap. I really hope those beta numbers start to climb and fast!

Isabel said...

Waiting is horrid. I hope time flies and you get great news soon!

olivegirl said...

Hang in there and best wishes. And know that there's someone else out there waiting on pins and needles too. I'm waiting for results of my second beta. Always with the waiting.

A said...

Ugh, sounds so hard...I'm really hoping that it's just a late start and that the 3rd beta brings good news.

AshPash said...

Wishing you the best, Ellie. I hope that third beta turns out well.

Lut C. said...

This is so hard! Hoping and wishing for you!

Alli said...

I'm pulling for you, Ellie. I hate the beta game, too.

LJ said...

I know, it's just horrible sitting through this. I'm thinking of you...

Nicole said...

I have all my digits crossed for a rising beta.