Saturday, July 28, 2007

We did the ultra sound today. No heart beat. At 7 weeks, 4 days-- there ought to be one. We ended up cutting our day short and came home to grieve. Tomorrow we go back for surgery- then I'll take a few days off to heal. We can't thank everyone enough for all the support and encouragement you've given us on this journey-- I don't think we can continue it anymore. It's just too painful and we need to take care of ourselves and our hearts and get back to the process of living. Hugs to you all still on your journey--

44 comments:

LJ said...

Oh Ellie - I am SO sorry.

Bea said...

I was afraid of this. I was so hoping it wouldn't happen again. I'm so very sorry. I'm sure you'll make the right decision about the future together once you've had a chance to heal, and if that means moving on, I wish you all the peace and joy in the world.

Bea

VanillaDreams said...

I'm so very sorry. It hurts to read it. And there are no words to describe the unfairness of you going through this yet again. The IF world is a microcosm of unfairness and injustice.

If you can, please keep us updated as I'll be back to check on you.

xx
Nilla

Thalia said...

I'm so sorry, elle, this is just awful. You must feel like you're cursed or something, getting struck by lightning twice like this. Take all the time you need to grieve, and don't make any decisions yet, it's not the right time when things are so raw and awful.

Thinking of you.

Meg said...

Oh Ellie.

I don't know how to begin to tell you how sorry I am.

Meg x

Lut C. said...

This is just too much to bear. I'm sorry for your loss of another dream.
I can imagine that all you want now is to move away from this painful journey forever.
Where ever you go next, taking time to heal is the first step to take.

Stephanie said...

Ellie,
I am so sorry. My heart is heavy for you today.

Samantha said...

There is just nothing I can say that can adequately express the depths of my sorrow for you and your husband. It is so horrible.

I will be thinking of you.

Beagle said...

Ellie, I'm so very sorry for your loss. You and your hubby are in my thoughts.

Rachel said...

I'm so sorry.

Heather said...

I'm so sorry.

I'm thinking of you guys, you are in my prayers.

Amy R said...

Ellie, I am so unbelievably sorry.

Fertile Soul said...

I am so sorry for this news and for your loss. I wish it could have been different. I'm sorry for the grief and sadness. I wish you wellness and happiness.

Sherry said...

Ellie

Oh how I wish there were something I could type here that would ease your pain, even just for a moment. But I know its just not possible.

I am so, so sorry - I wish you a way to find peace in the coming days, weeks, and months. You and dh are in my thoughts and prayers.

Sherry

olivegirl said...

Deeply sorry. Take care of yourselves.

K said...

Ellie - I'm so, so sorry. I know that there's nothing I can say here that will even touch the pain you must be feeling right now, but please know that you and your husband are in all of our hearts, and thoughts, and prayers.

Nearlydawn said...

Oh, sweetie I'm so sorry. Nothing I can say will help you feel better, I know. Just know that we are here for you when you feel like returning. ((hugs))

Michelle said...

I'm deeply sorry.

Sarah said...

i'm so sorry. wishing you peace and comfort, in time.

Rebecca said...

I'm so sorry to hear that.

serenity said...

Oh Ellie.

Fuck.

I am so so sorry. :(

Heather said...

I'm so sorry. I can't believe this would happen again.

Hopeful Mother said...

Ellie, I am so incredibly sorry to read this. I can only imagine the grief that you and DH are facing right now. Please know that we are here for you whenever you are ready to come back.

Wishing you and DH healing and a way to make it through this together.

sharah said...

Ellie, I am so so sorry.

Rachel Inbar said...

I am so sorry. I was hoping it would be different for you this time.

Mary Ellen and Steve said...

Oh sweetie I am so so sorry. xx

Drowned Girl said...

I'm so sorry. You must be totally devastated.

Carol said...

oh god. Ellie. I am so sorry.

ms. c said...

Oh Ellie, I am just sick with pain for you. I am so so sorry that this happened.
I wish you much peace.

Mony said...

Wha?
Oh my dear, dear sister. I am stunned & saddened for you. So very sorry. Your pain must be immeasurable.

summer pickles said...

I am so very sorry to hear your news. I wish you loads of strength and support in whatever comes next. There must be some good stuff coming (what my partner in crime/life always tells me).
Hannah

hopeful to hateful in 28 days said...

I'm really sorry. I have been there too and I know how much it hurts. Thinking of you.

Shazz said...

I am so so sorry.

Hez said...

I'm sorry. I'm very, very sorry.

Larisa said...

I'm so so sorry.

Jenna said...

oh Ellie, I'm so sorry. I just found your blog through Mel's blogroll, and I was so hoping to be able to announce some great news for her Lost and Found. You haven't updated in a while. I know you will need time. But all the while we are thinking of you and hoping for you to return to the blog world for support.

Jenna
http://epilogue.inconceivablejourney.com

Isabel said...

IF is horrible. I'm sorry.

Beagle said...

Stopping by to let you know you're in my thoughts.

frogqueen said...

I'm sorry for your loss. Brenda

Shazz said...

I am so sorry. Thinking of you xx.

zhl said...

ellie, just wondering how you and your husband are doing. I've been thinking of you. I hope some healing has taken place, although I know that's a wound that never really heals.

Pixxiee said...

I haven't been reading blogs so to come to yours after such a long absence and to such sad news. Oh Ellie. I am so very very sorry.

Hugs
Pixxiee

zhl said...

Have a wonderful time in Paris. Getting away for Christmas is a great idea. We did it last year and had a great vacation.

Bonne vacances!

Beagle said...

Hoping you're OK.

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